Guess who's back in the, HOUSE

been coming back here a few times within the last couple days now. was goin through my stuff and couldn't help but feel proud (for lack of a better word) of what I've accomplished here. this.. hiatus of thought, we'll call it, has been pushing and pushing itself to the fore-front for the past 2 years or so, yet I still managed to bring some streams of consciousness and awakened the innards of it all. feelin different than before becaaause.. THIS WRITER'S BLOCK IS MUTHALOVIN OVER (I think). my last post was dated October 17th; feels like a hella long time ago but when you count it out, 4 months doesn't seem so bad(?). which brings me to my next point..

thought I was optimistic before, but I'm somehow even more so now. it just keeps getting stronger, this elevated view on life! by the end of the day, happy BB days > thought consumed angry/unsettling nights :):):) I know hey, wtf! even better cus this'd be my first post of the year. holla! BUT!.. I must not let my fingertips pressing the keyboard surpass my fingers holding the pen against the paper. wow, now that I really think about it, I tried writing today and was proven unsuccessful.. maybe it was the spot I was at: it was a distracting kind of noisy, couldn't enjoy my Music the way I normally would even amongst the life around me. I hope that moment stays that moment and won't grow into something similar to what these past 4 months have been :/

anyway, it's currently 5:33am (the latest I've been up since summer). I shall see you soon :)
Love, B

currently 10:21 in the morning and I've been up for a few hours now. it feels like a morning from high school. legit. I loved high school for the different experiences I had and at the place and state I was back then,... I'd just crumble to my knees if I ever got the chance to just see that girl again. it may be that a this month is finally turning around my life for me, but even so, have faith in me when I say, this is truly an Amazing feeling

Love, B

Another sleepless night

Rudy Fransiscooo

You want it so badly.. don't you? Then that's half the battle, my friend.

..the rest is entirely up to [Y]ou. reach out but stay humble, let nothing dampen your hopes, and allow your fears to fuel your dreams.

P.S. don’t forget to smile cus it all happened

I just wanted to say that I'm so grateful for all the outlets that I've been so blessed with in my life. to be honest, I don't know where I'd be if I never danced, sang, or wrote. each of these three have given me opportunities to explore what this world has to offer, and without one, both, or the other -

life would be meaningless, and I would be of no worth.

even more so, thank you for watching, listening, and reading what I've been able to spit out and create from everything I go under and take up. it means so much more than you think. I will never be able to merely depict the words or explain any means of affection to proclaim my appreciation for it all. I forever stand for the fact that an artist always puts a piece of themselves in their work; thank you for taking a shot at that piece of my very soul within the depths and care yours. all is love y'all