Saturday, September 26

Gooooooood MORNING!! :)

I was kinda cranky/meh when my sister woke me up this morning like she usually does. I wanted to sleep in sooo bad today! but I feel so good HAHA! like one of those mornings that feel great? HAHA I don't want to hype it up so much cus I'm not THAT happy, just not groggy. I feel good :)

don't think I've mentioned this yet, but.. laaast month(?) I had a dream that I was working at some place like the PNE and while I was running concession, this lady cut in front of the line cus she needed me to bring her to the washroom. I found out that she was having a baby :O not just any baby, but f/cken MUTATED babies!!!!! yes PLURAL!! it looked like some fricken The Matrix or some shit o.O then later on I was working at some hood restaurant and every time it switched scenes, I was having an abundant meal with lotsa lotsa rice with one of my family members HAHA!

yeeeeah.. I either dream WEIRD or not dream at all and with that, I never remember my dreams LOL. so I searched it up and discovered that baby dreams calls for important/significant change, mind you there were mutant babies meaning BIG change. rice means good fortune? food is good and settlement in the home.. somethin like that. haha oddly enough, it's all practically true! I'm a freaking freshman!!! I work in retail and I hope to get a start on choreographing, or at least freestyling, whenever I can *knock on wood**

Corpus is a whoooole lot better than expected. at first, I was hella NOT excited about going there: small school, same faces, small school. aha! I've been university bound since the day I was born. doesn't help when you get accepted to your dream school too. but nah, there's some real nice people over there. everyone's outgoing haha! took a lot of getting used to, aha but I'm slowly opening up more and more. I met someone who's pretty similar to me btw:| haha, not saying I don't like her. its just wrird. aha. I'm pretty satisfied with my course load and profs: pysch 100, philosophy 104, econ 201, math 100, eng 110... UGH! ENGLISH! my teacher's ajsdnhaiwdah!!!!!! she thought I was freaking ESL! I'm a freaking Arts student with Eng & Lit as my best subjects! geesh, I was in AP English for a while too! (school system's diff at St Pats) she even requested for me to get a tutor holy fuuuuuhh! there's still a possibility of me transferring out but no notification yet. ugh, other than that! thing's are lookin good.. good lookin.. ha. =)

that's right y'all.. I work in retail. I already cringe just typing that haha! Forever 21 suckas. & I work with Gino, Jessa AND Chad HAHA! :D they're actually pretty legit! the company I mean. haha, in a sense that like we can't hold items for you, you can't get stuff off the manequin even if it's that last one of something. our discount is (only) 10% and only the manager/DM can ring you through. everything's final sale if I were to buy it for you. sorry in advanced! I think I'll be ok tho.. ah! pray for me man. haha. hope I'll last.

dance dance dance. mmm, still pretty shy haha. & I mean 'whenever I can' as plainly as it says, even if it calls for being at the groceries, park, random places around school. hehe

but yup! just a (not so) little update. I shall talk to you lata!!!

Love, B

Tuesday, September 22

- a sentimental yearning for happiness of a past time

I hate nostalgia. No emo, kinda. haha
(refer to blog entry here & skim but emphasize on paragraph 6 here)

If Love Should Count You Worthy

If love should count you worthy,
and deign one day
to seek your door,
and be your guest,
Pause! ere you draw the bolt and bid him rest
if in your old content you would remain.

For not alone he enters: in his train
are angels of the mist,
the lonely quest,
dreams of the unfulfilled
the unpossessed,
and sorrow,
and life's immemorial pain.

He wakes desires you never will forget;
He shows you stars you never saw before;
He makes you share with him forevermore
the burden of the world's fine regret.

How wise you were to open, not!
and yet, how poor if you should turn him from your door.

If love should count you worthy.

Saturday, September 12

"If you look in the dictionary, you will always find hardworking before successful."

this past week has just been nuts. nuts nuts nuts. I think I've never felt all these emotions.. ALL AT ONCE and within days of each other. I swear my bad day streak would never end. since I was also experiencing pre "woman's week", I have nooo idea how I was able to smile through it all. through it all I've discovered that when it comes down to it, I will always have dance.

funny cus, all summer. all I've been doing was taking class after class. I freaking LOVED it! I followed my goal for once and took at least 2 classes a week, with the exception of a week or too. pretty hard to believe, but I've been dancing for as long as I can remember but I think these past few years was when I really started dancing. whether it was a class, a performance, or simply some footage I was watching, I'd pay attention to sooo much detail. it's not even funny, haha. I'd closely observe the way a specific move was hit, how each may have been felt, how much energy is required for the first 3 counts then how much control as well as relaxation the rest of the 8 needed. I took even closer notes on how my body specifically was moving like how I involve my shoulders way too much with a lot of movements and that my arms may be clean but my angles are weird haha. and forreal, I never take class or perform for the same reasons every time. haha umm.. like I usually take Jomee's whenever I can not to get choreo but so that my body can get used to moving so suddenly and differently. wait, I guess that's the same thing as getting choreo lol (btw, Jerome Esplana 3:30 to 4:30 Saturdays at Harbour). haha but anyway..

I don't really know where I'm going with this. I guess I just wanted to put word out there for Jerome.. haha and for my personal reference. like notes for a quiz, this'll be notes for a performance. yeah. haha k peace.

btw visit my youtube channel. I wanted to post a whole stream of choreo vids I've been watching, but since I haven't done so in a while, there'd be too many lol. my user is n00BEEBS.

Love, B