Saturday, August 29

"If you love your job, you don't have to work another day in your life."

..with that said then I need a fuckin JOB!!

Thursday, August 27

agh! I have work in 6 hours! meaning I need to wake up in 4 ish hours.. BUT! I must blog about all the good food I had today:)

the first thing I ate today was mango sorbetto from Mario's Gelati.. yuuumm [btw, woke up at 9 and indulged at approx. 2] ate at Earl's with the BFFL's Zen, Moonda, and Checo before Jp's class. had penne alfredo with chicken cutlets followed by smores with chocolate and vanilla ice cream on the side served with that caramel thinger on the bottom that they're known for.. omg yum. had more food at Lisa's place after Jp's; she wanted to have a little get together and cook us (me and my work friends) a nice dinner since Evan and I are leaving [Starbucks]. she's such a sweetheart<3 freaking bbq'ed salmon burgers, side of mushrooms and baked potatoes, and a side of garden salad with honey pear vinegarette.. mmmmmm. oh! and black & white cake from whole foods haha.

such a good day today. not gonna lie, I will miss work:(
[ul] full of good food & good time

btw, The Changeling is SUCH a good movie.

Love, B

Wednesday, August 26

can't sleep!

today was coooooooll. PNE show with SickSTYLZ, 24/7, Stonefoxx, KTL, and 'No Names' (Diamonds). kiiiiiiiiller line up all in one set! very very successful I'd say, really great turn out as well. coincidentally, En Vogue was performing too! WOW! SO GOOD. for those of you who've never heard of them, give Don't Let Go or Hold On a listen, you'll probably recognize. Free Your Mind's pretty dope. I miss r&b like that man:( ate a "Whale's Tail" and experienced the Haunted Mansion with Marielle, Jace and Jr. HAHAHAHAHAHA shii, Jr is one (literally) buff dude, but he was already squeezing MY arm as we were lining up!! shit that place was hella scary I won't lie. began with Ming and Jace and Jr and I following behind, but some how Ming ended up leading the pack with me pushing her to continue on, LOL. I think I ran outta there once I found out we reached the end:$ caught Ross doing his thing, his jazzy stuff with the pro's who did a show to showcase the nearly 100 years of success at the PNE. wasn't able to catch Jane and freaking Menelaine go go dancing tho! second fail was not riding any rides. only me and Jr had complimentary rides passes and we wanted to catch En Vogue which was at 8 at night. still haven't ridden my first ride yet.

sooooo!.. before summer ends, I must:
1. ride my first fricken roller coaster!!!!
2. go to the aquarium
3. watch Time Traveler's Wife, G.I. Joe, District 9, 500 Days of Summer?
4. school stuff
5. get a job!!!!!!!!
6. back to school shopping!! hopefully get a new wardrobe
7. bbq/sleepover cus Moonda's finally back :D

& I guess my summer '09 soundtrack includes:
Lykke Li - I'm Good, I'm Gone acoustic
Janet Jackson - Feels So Right
Estelle ft Saun Paul - Come Over
Ebrahim... just youtube him
BBMak - Back Here
Michael Jackson.. everything.. especially his Dangerous, Bad, and Thriller albums

Collie Buddz and some other people - Come Around remix
Miguel Jontel - Let's Just Be
Melissa Polinar.. youtube this crazy chica too
En Vogue - What's It Gonna Be
Jazmine Sullivan - Dream Big <3
Slakah the Beatchild - Enjoy Ya Self
Slakah the Beatchild - D.A.N.C.E.
New Boyz - You're a Jerk haha!
Clipse ft the Neptunes - I'm Good
Black Star - Thieves in the Night
Little Dragon - Constant Surprises

yeuuuuuuhh, brought back some classics:) anyways I'm finally sleepy! up early to take my Upass picture and to hopefully buy my books! then brunch with my BFFL's cus Moonda's finally home, h&m for an exchange, Jp's, staff dinner at Lisa's for me and Evan cus we're leaving:( she's so sweet, definitely going to miss her.

night y'all!

Love, B

Wednesday, August 12

"At the end of the day, think 'what has this day brought me, and what have I given it?'"

forreal, I'm already freaking tiiiired, yo. today, I had work from 7am-2:30 (supposed to be til 1:30, but I had to stay an extra hour cus stupid chick after me was late!!!!!), failed to do Ming's vid for her debut, walked around Gastown/Downtown for a couple hours before visiting Jo at work, debut prac at 8, GMA at 10, got home around 1:30. chilled with my brother for a bit, his bed is way comfortable than mine aha. btw, this is only day 2 of mad rehearsals. right now I got Ming's entourage dance for her debut (hip hop of course, no one does the traditional waltz anymore. at least not in Van) as well as Sickstylz with Jp, Marc, Donnel, Kyky, Jane, and Shay for the GMA thinger. I'll probably post a link about it sometime soon, but anyway.. I pretty much only have 4/5 hours of dance everyday this week but by the end of the night, my body is as out as how it was when I (literally) had 8-10 hour days of dance everyday of July two years ago. on top of that, fridays and saturdays got two extra hours for our PNE show in two weeks. still, on top of that, I got some school shit to work out, some work shit to worry about, and lastly myself to take care of.

what I'm trying to say is, I'm fucking tired as hell, but I absolutely love it. for me, being tired obviously means I'm doing 'too much', but it also means that I am getting the most out of my day, majority of which I never thought I was able to do. I can't help but feel so blessed for all the things that God has given me and for all the things that I was able to conquer in my seemingly jam-packed days. this 'tiredness' only emphasizes the enthusiasm I have for life and by the end of the day, I'm more than pleased for all that I accomplished, tho there may be few that I failed to do.

I should really get some sleep tho, I've been up for nearly 24 hours.. later days.

Love, B

Thursday, August 6

haven't really blogged in a while. I mean, haven't really said what's been up wif me? as of late. haha. been busy, been lazy, been getting sucked into all the latest technology buuuzz but failed to touch this. in that case, I shall procede..

today pretty much sums up how I've been chillin. oh, and today [was] a Wednesday, I'm usually bumming around my house, in bed, or at the table watching Fresh Prince & Still Standing, shower up for Jp's class at Harbour then hanging out with whoever feels like it after class collecting a can full of Good Times. today turned out toooootally different though. had to run a couple errands before taking class.. if I was still able to take class.

yaaaaa.. money's been a real bitch to me lately:

FINALLY quit my job at Starbucks (as of 2 weeks ago?). been meaning too since March-ish; hlycrp was that a load off my chest simply telling my manager (though I note it was HELLA nerve racking outta my MIND!). don't get me wrong, being a barista ain't so bad at all, 'twas a good job experience, but considering how my schedule's going to be come school starts and with Season 2 for SickSTYLZ.. my manager might as well 'fire' me and my crazy availability that won't meet 'Starbucks standard'. haha. technically though, I gave her my month's notice, rather than my 2 weeks, meaning I'll be officially done with that place on the 3rd of September. I'll also officially be unemployed, but I needed something to motivate me to find a better job or at least a more reasonable place to stay. its already August! which leaves me a month for success! forreal, I might even just apply at another location HAHA! I just really dislike my manager, lol.

was figuring out this student loan business for Corpus. WOW is it more complicated than I thought. the application form alone looked like a freaking T4 with 5 extra pages!! it involves detailed money info like a T4 too!! haha! then there's an Appendix 1, 2, and 3 each at least 4 pages. shoot, I thought I'd be done in 30 minutes! aha!

in case you missed it.. yup yup, I'm going to Corpus Christi for post-secondary. university transfer, English and Psychology. to kids at UBC in my household is heeeeeella expensive, no matter how many scholarships I got there (which were none). though I applied reaaally late actually, I applied before the end of April and they ONLY got back to me mid-June! still, I had a very very successful interview.. very successful interview. I was very happy about it and was proud to call CC my home of growth for now. btw, it's a super small college on the UBC campus, I'm sure not all of you have never heard of it before. meaning.. I get all the benefits of UBC too AND for the Corpus tuition!! the facilities, clubs, professors. they even got an access studies program which allows me to take any courses at UBC that Corpus doesn't have since its only a Liberal Arts college. yee =) not too sure what I'm going to do with my Eng and Psych, so I'll be taking up some courses there for poooossibly health sciences. still unsure what specifically but ain't it sweet?

errand #2 conisisted of vid for Ming's debut. her candles are doing their speeches on vid and they'll be played in between performances and presentations. UGH after 5,000 takes and writing/rewriting my speech I stuck with a just a tiny blurb thing that I was still unhappy with. after viewing it enlarged, I just realised that I forgot to switch settings back to the OG one so it looks like I used some cheap ass camera:( eff, I SUCK with words!!! but it was less the a minute like she preferred. Ming's debut in general is going pretty well I think? I don't know of much, just the usual rantings. the dancing's good! good good good. :)

dance has very much been a priority this summer. I'm thinking of keeping it that way as the years progress=) I'm loving it soooo so much. on a weekly basis, I take Jp's class on wednesdays, Jerome's on saturday, then followed by debut practice for another 2/3 hours. shiiii, now I got Sickstylz on fridays and saturdays after debut practice! in preparation for our PNE show on the 25th. AH! I'm luuuuvvin it. yesterday though, I was thinking 'bout holding back on classes cus damn, being a dancer is expensive! harsh made me think with this school stuff and unemployment stuff. I'm not part of any studio or any other crew and I don't have much room or privacy in my house haha, so taking class is the only way to expand my vocabularly. I think Sickstylz is my home. I plan on sticking with these guys for a long while. only hitting our second year, so we shall see.

the peoples have been reeeeal good to me. I'll always love my fam, friends. shit happens, but forreal.. oh well. haha you should hear me say that, I'm not cold-hearted. I'll always be the same person. no matter what goes down, I'll still be down. take it or leave! to the pit of my stomach, I'll still care. sorry moms if it doesn't seem that way. we need to somehow fix this miscommunication/misunderstanding. time heals all wounds, so letting things just do things (haha!) is the best for growing, accepting love. love you Ma..

yuh, I think I've said all I could. enjoy the day aight? apparently it calls for clouds tomorrow (sure should. it was freaking cold last night!!!! I was dressed for Fall, yo s'weird. haha). don't be bummed, life's still the same you faggot. haha.

thank you for surving this post. haha, I always end the long ones the same.

k peace.

Love, B