Monday, December 29

Thank the LORD for days off yo. Got to sit, stand, and chiiiiill...
spent the whole day out!! F/CK yeah!!:) woke up early for nothing (haha i'm used to it/dont mind anymore) . Original plan was to head Downtown with brother at 10, but we got lazy and realized nothing was open til 12 anyway, ahaha. Haha eff, proof of how GG I am with Downtown:$ Anytoots, left the house at 11.Went around Gastown (sad to say, I haven't been there in a whole year:$:$). Went to the usual dope stores: Alife, Complex, Livestock, Goodfoot. Took the liberty of going to some new ones too: Obakki and (finally) the new Stussy store. Girlies with sass, check out Obakki I strongly encourage you. Dropped off food for my brother cus I almost made him late=\ met up with Jo and met her friends. Nathalie's so chill, aha. Eff, fooled me into thinking you were Filipino too hhahahaha. Chilled around Downtown for a bit then to TGI's at Metro. Jace and Jel were working!!!! Usual Jack Daniel ribs... I believe... with something else (got the party platter this time). Jel lost his tooth again!:( Poor Arjel=( Jace thought our comment card was lame. Sheesh, we only missed you thaat much. I hope you found your tip (u). Headed to Church (so happy to admit btw).Then we departed and off to bro's work we go. Helped Ming with her close; she was 1 hour behind =\ Went home.

Today was hella nice. Shoot, watched re-runs of The Hills, One Tree Hill, and Gossip Girl as well as the premiers of Bromance and The City (L) the whole damn day. Dang yo, even went back to my roots and ate some freaking Daing and rice with my hands HAHAHAHAHA! Oh geeez...shout out to the fobs out thuuurr. Ate tonnes of chocolate throughout the day too:$ Aww man, it was such a good day today; got to relax from my stressful, music inspired, educated, and sleep deprived life.

& from my days of no work I love a few things just a bit more:
1. Hellz Bellz Dresesd to Kill
Drool... I think I just want the Plain white T come to think of it.
Yeah, I 'm pretty sure I'm behind on what's in this season...
But I still want it.
2. My brother
Yuh, I know corny. But f/ck ya'll!! Aha, but of course, the lovely Joana had to smack my face with it.
While me and my bro were waiting for the bus, we were talking about how not-sogreat our Christmas was (again) this year. I brought up how I don't want a debut because I don't want a father-daughter dance; same for my un-want for him to be at my grad my wedding and every significant day of my life that requires some sort of connection/reference with a father.
"I'll hand you off (referring to my wedding)" need I say more?
3. TV!!!!!!
Shoot, I just haaad to realize this while watching One Tree Hill. Haaaa...
But anyway, I am: extreeemely bitter, likewise extremely happy, & crazily cautious because I'm freaking scared, yo. Scared of people getting too close to me. I'm scared that they'll see the real me; the person I, myselft, am afraid of. Weird, eh? Haha, I guess that's why a lot of people don't prefer to maintain let alone make eye contact with the other. Hahahaha & I guess how 'its as if they're looking into your soul' is f/cken RIGHT. HAHA! Also, I can't always do a million things for other people leaving me last. So straight up, haha & I know I sound so arrogant (sorry, but I'm not). I can't always be all the Nate Archibalds for the spoiled and hot Blairs of this world. But I can't helpt it. One more thing that tops my list for New Year's Resolutions. I'm learning, I'm learning.

Oh yeah! I'm actually making those this year! I always thought they were stupid since I don't really know of anyone who actually went through with them, I guess that's the point of them though, realizing how lazy and ignorant we all are. I'm lazy! & ignorant! + I think that actually setting goals for myself will help me. I've been neglecting that for years now; awlways trying to grow up faster than I already am. Sheesh! Gotta take it slooowmo...

Sorry for the long blog. Screw you if you were impatient. (L)

Peace for now.

Saturday, December 27

New found love music! Fooled ya!

"Mateo is on a mission to make the world feel again."

“People don’t feel anything anymore..."

"Back in the day, it wasn’t about crazy runs. For example with Donny Hathaway, it was all about his voice and not the beat underneath it. R&B now is all about hollow hip-hop beats and simple melodies, there’s no cleverness to love songs anymore

“I don’t want to be so affected that all I can see is the worst in everything...There’s beauty in the world, but we don’t take the time to notice it"

"If you have a passion or a dream, any road that takes you away from that is taking you away from your true self"

"[For Mateo] it’s all about the vibe, the voice, and of course…the music"

...Spoken like a true artist; a true person.

Thursday, December 18

Wth's wrong with me. Why can't I write. Why does frusteration get in the way of creativity. Eff my life, I just want to finish my homework.


Sunday, December 14


How could I have failed to mention the saddest moment of my life!!!! Quad grande americano cutie is gone forever!!!!!!!!!!! Of all the damn days you had to stop by to say goodbye:( You know I don't work Thursdays!!:'( I just knew it, you like Elly :( I guess I'll see you in 6 months then... or I'll just move to Edmonton... & I just found out Max's and the other cute friend Ryan's names last week :( Haha! How lame am I...
My heart is forever broken. :(

HAHA! shiiiiiiiii'
(exasperated sigh)
It's been my goal since forever at random points in my life to blog everyday
despite the kind of day I've had/been having.
I just wanted to write.
About anything: my care-free day, my frusterating test, the lame joke Jessica told me, the stupid drama people come up with, my emo-ness ness, sudden realizations and what not.
But of course, something always gets in the way.
Whether it be lame homework, annoying tiredness, or my stupid forgetful memory, I cannot keep up with myself as well as my supposed simple goal.

But actually, I've reeeally been thinking about it.
Therefore I have come to the conclusion that I simply choose not to write.
& for a while, I've been in deeep 'metacognition' and have been trying to understand why I didn't want to write.
Hlysht did it bug me, haha.
But I chose not to write about the emotional stress that I go through, good or bad.
I don't like dwelling on the shit I got; to see it everyday, to read it everyday.

Today, however, marks history.
...Haha, but I'm not going to tell you what has driven me to this epiphany (sucka). For once in my life, I don't want to know or even think about what your thinking if I were to tell you.

If you can find the revelance of Jericho/ Soo/ fish/ Edmonton? Calgary.../ September 30/ August 24/ December 11 together, than holy fck I guess I've found my soulmate. Reveal yourself!! Haha!

Tuesday, December 9

Hahaha I like how this post is exactly after the previous Encounter. But aaaanyways...

I feel so unsatisfied. My Encounter experience wasn't as fulfilling as I had hope for; I'm pretty sure that this is not resulting in my high expectations of it either. Not saying that I did not enjoy it, however. Everyone has made comparisons to YFC in saying that it is 'waaayy better', which I will agree with. The way the sessions and discussions are held and what not. But for me on a personal level, & though I did try, I was not able to let go of the things I was planning to so as to make this weekend "life changing". & I feel so shiiiiitty. After this Encounter, I wanted to become a new person and look at things even more different than I do now. I wanted/needed that inspiration that I have been longing for. I just feel so empty. I thought that I was only feeling so let down and angered last night. I woke up this morning in a better mood though! Sill no revelation though

& I am so bummed (to say the least).

Now I am sitting on my chair still attempting to freaking finish my english essay for my project. Normally this is peace easy for me. oh btw, my teacher gave me an extension; supposed to be due exactly last week. Wth man. Words cannot illustrate how frusterated I am with myself. I want to cry just to let it all out, but I can't. I just need some sort of inspiration that doesn't occur for only one moment in the day filling that bigass void within me. Was hoping it would be Encounter...

God, I miss You.
Pleeease come back into my life.
I need to go back to who I am; who I was.
I need You.

Tuesday, November 18

what the eff ?!!

Sooooo today was probably one of the best i've ever had so far.
++ might i mention, i had a super chill dope time with my classmates.

pls do excuse me if you take offense but i speak for everyone when i say that i never thought i'd see the day where i can admit to having a good time with my classmates. everyone, including myself, always spoke so low of us saying how we're lame and we don't party and all that shizz. fuck that shit! since i am too GG (Good Girl) for most people, i freaking love my class for not falling into that kind of junk. cus forreal, i had sooo much fun today; the most fun i had in a whiile. & it was while organizing freaking parent teacher interviews!!

but brb! bro's kicking me off>=( but it is quite late..i shall continue later...

XOXO Gossip Girl

Sunday, November 2

Adele's the shit

Sunday, October 5

"Every woman is in the relationship she wants"

Saturday, September 27

The Seige
Best movie in a daang long time.

I wish I watched it in full though,
cus shit, regardless
that hit me haaard, yo
Denzel Washington, you dope sauce.

Sunday, September 21

Dear God,

I'm sorry for being so selfish. I know that everyone says I have reason to and that I don't deserve what I'm going through blah blah but forreal, I can deal and you know it =) I'm strong, You've raised me well.

But for now - actually, for a while - please take care of them, Lord God. No one deserves that kind of a loss so soon, so unexpected. I know our relationship has been such a rollercoaster (religion 11 is some messed up junk and you know it, aha) and that I'm hella drifting away at hyper speed, but please please please help me to understand Your plan for them.

With everything going on right now, I'm sure I simply don't/can't even trust You at all right now, excuse me for being frank.

But please God, just keep them aware of your presecence. Please take exceptional care of Tito and his family please. You know how hard-hitting it is for me as well whenever anyone dies, despite how Chica's my classmate and what not. But if I'm feeling as shitty as I am right now, I can not even imagine how they're coping, to say the least. I just really wish we didn't grow so far apart, cus I don't even know how to pray anymore.

But yeah, just be with them, k?
Yeah, still in a loss for words.
I'm sorry I couldn't do my homework again:(
& yeah, I guess that's all.


Wednesday, August 27

Monday, August 25

Wow this sucks.
I'll get better I promise

Sunday, August 24

"Let it been known that God's penmanship has been signed
with a language called love
That's why my breath is felt by the deaf
And why my words are heard and confined to the ears of the blind
I, too, dream in color and in rhyme
So I guess I'm one of a kind in a full house
Cuz whenever I open my heart, my soul, or my mouth
A touch of God rains out"

- J. Ivy

Monday, August 18


Patience is a virtue.
Dear God, then please help me to be virtuous...

Sunday, August 10

Shoot, I finally figured it out

"It will be easier to deal with your pain than face mine."
I guess that's why I don't like it when people are sad. But still, it keeps me preoccupied; making me feel somewhat better about this world...knowing that there's a little pain in everyone. Gives the well deserved a smack in the face about reality, HAHA!

Peace bitches.

Saturday, August 9

"People do have an effect on us even when they're gone"
Spoken like a true sister

I love my guuuurls

Friday, August 8

Why is everyone so sad? Don't they know it's contagious...........:(
Seeing everyone endure something so undeserving is so life-sucking, even if you were merely a pan-handler who pan-handles for drugs.

oh right
So this dude regularly stands outside our store in front of the newspaper stands just taking in the hot hot sun like a sponge got arrested today. Oh yeah, he shoots heroine in our bathroom whenever he manages to sneak in knowing he's already been kicked out. That's freaking heart wrenching, just watching it all happen in front of you: the cops arriving, searching him, cuffing him. I guess just feeling so helpless all together just gets to me all the time. Though keeping in mind that he only wanted your money to get to other worthless and meaningless shit, I still feel for the guy in a way, I guess 'for the life he ended up living' is what Evan told me.

But still. Iunno man. I can't stand it when people are sad/upset/hurting/whatever. I just feel really bad for them. Not like guilt, but one should ever have to feel sad. Yeah, I'm so naive. & optimistic when it comes to other people's problems. Hahaha. I know I know, without pain there's no growth. But what about if there's too much pain? This goes out to you.

Saturday, August 2

Bahavia!!! Yahh!

Half-way through summer already.
& i'm pretty satisfied.
Cory in the House, fyi.

...yeah, i'm just tired of seeing that previous post. haha!

Just keepin' it real.

Sunday, July 27

'Girls should realize'

"We guys don't care if you talk to other guys.
We don't care if you're friends with other guys.
But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.

It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there. We don't care if a guy calls >OR TEXTS<>

The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.

Yeah, you can quote me.

Don't be mad when we hold the door open.

Take Advantage of the mood im in.

Let us pay for you!
Dont 'feel bad' We enjoy doing it.
It's expected.
Smile and say 'thank you'.

Kiss us when no one's watching.

If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking,
we'll be more impressed.

You don't have to get dressed up for us.
If we're going out with you in the first place,
you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have
or put on every kind of makeup you own.
We like you for who you are and not what you are.
Honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's.or my tshirt and boxers, not all dolled up.

Don't take everything we say seriously.
Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.

Don't get angry easily.

Stop using magazines/media as your bible.

Don't talk about how hott Chris Brown, Brat Pitt, or jesse McCartney in front of us.
It's boring, and we don't care.
You have girlfriends for that.

Whatever happened to the word 'handsome'/'beautiful'?
I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with 'Hey handsome!' instead of 'Hey baby/stud/cutie/sexy' or whatever else you can think of. On the other hand im not sayin i woulndnt like it ether ;)

Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, dont wait for him to change!!!!! Ditch his sorry ass, disgrace to the male population and find someone who will treat you with utter respect.

Someone who will honor your morals.

Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lows

Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.

Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.

Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes....and say 'i love you' ..and actually mean it.

Give the nice guys a chance."

Wednesday, July 23

To dream that you have committed a murder indicates that you are putting an end to an old habit and your former ways of thinking. It could also mean an end to an addiction. To dream that you are a witness to a murder indicates deep-seated anger towards somebody. To dream that you are murdered suggests that an important relationship has been severed and you are trying to disconnect yourself from your emotions. It also represents your unused talents. Note that dreams of murder occur frequently during periods of depression.

Monday, July 21

I simply can't contain myself anymore.
I miss it all too much.
There's a bigass void within me
filled with the shattered things that've gone & went.
I miss you
I miss him
& you especially.
& motherfucker, you too.
With all that was said and done
I can't believe I still hurt
I still cry
I still ponder
I still wonder
Giving up
or rather, getting over.

& now there's nothing left.

I just miss everything, that's all.
What I used to have been used to
the whole, fuck-it-your-loss...
I guess not so much anymore?
'Cause now I'm losing.
& I miss...

I miss.

Tuesday, June 10 are actually quite gorgeous

So probably the most chill exam day of my life..
Yada yada, no more chem & eng11 for the rest of my (highschool) liiiiife yo PEACE! Oh man and it rained today (L) the Philippines!! Dude, I was so happy, my day could not have been anymore perfect: Walking to the bustop/getting off the bus with my broken umbrella that managed to snap in half(?), wet socks, broken school flats, my oversized zip up practically drenched because of the lack of shelter, my chai steamed milk muthasuckas, an oven-heated white macadamian nut cookie...(L) x 6397873576. My perfect day. To top it off, Twilight is now officially my favorite book (my bad The Kiterunner...).

Edit - June 30, 2008
HAHA! How baks am i. Crazy ass book, but not a crazy ass writer? haha? I'll be back later

Edit - July 17, 2008
Yeah, guess I'm still a sucker:$ Read all three, the last one being the most lacking. They're actually, not as crazily written as a lot of the obsessive girls say it is, maybe cus the book's so hype now? Still, I dream.

Monday, May 26

Reach so high that you fall on a cloud

Saturday, May 24

favorite pic of the night, aha. i miss you two!

Saturday, May 10

I freaking miss your guts, man. I think the last time we aaaactually hung out was when I came over when it was you moms' birthday that random day & we watched Narnia since its one of your favorite movies but then i was cashed so you said i could fall asleep whenever i felt like i had to but then you ended passing out before i did even i opened that morning and will be again the following day. eFF, that was long ago:'(

Saturday, April 5

...can you see my facials? HAHA! yah dude, this was so fun.

lets do it again some time

Monday, March 31

...inspirfrickenration. Yeah, I've probably watched this about a billion times now but zomg wowowow.

this past weekend was kiiiiller yo. Move'08 was dope man and the freaking workshop; cotdamn Ate Cookie props for hooking that up. Steve Bolton you're nuts man. The things you drew attention to in and out of your class today are things I'll aaalways take with me. S'not everyday you hear things that are of this much value; ahhhh I'm still so speechless man! Frick! A good kind of speechless, obvi haha. I guess being as independent as I am can be a burden and can do nothing but hold you back. Ooooohwee that's pretty big of me to say to be real. So bad, aha:S

In ways I really have lost my inspiration even though I know exactly what I want right now. Funny how that turns out, huh? I don't know, everything's so muttled up in my head right now. For now though, Aimee Lucas you're my idol. & you're freaking hot too. Hahahaha shooooot mans

Tuesday, March 25

aww man, the most chill day ever; an "i-wish-everyday-were-like-this-kind-of-day" (L)
open studio at justin's. Shiiiet, might as well have been a workshop yo! JP's and Jerome's piecees were siiick, they're insane yo. Headed to work to pick up tips so that me tin mar jp jerome kylie and justin ray could go to the moooobies!! $10 yeye=) went to metro.. cotdamn yo, justin.. you're freaking hilaaarious man HAHAHA!! all the busrides everywhere, trouble trouble trouble hahahaha oh man we were so freaking loud hahahaha! mall ratted a little only to find that our movie wasn't even playing anyway haha. so much heat for me in AA:$. . . . . . so headed to blockbuster then ming's. eff yo, "haballoween": the most messed up shit i've ever seen. this is why i'm up right now oh man, for once i'm too scared to sleep! lllooolllll.

now, gotta head back to reality. forreal though man, thank you Lord Jesus for the most chill day ever. I haven't enjoyed myself this much in so long...HAHAHA! for once as well, i don't want srping break to end:(:( cus this time, i didn't waste it=)=

Friday, March 21

Tuesday, March 18

@#%^*)#%$(@#$!_%(!%_#(!_+$!@$'re keeping me from things things not natural to all beings, things that are important to me. How can you just sit there paying no piece of mind but yet at the same time objectify ruthlessly to what makes up my very soul? I'll cange the world one day & you will not be part of it. Thanks for a billion nothings, once again.

Friday, March 14

...I think today marks history, Jippee I've missed you so much! You're my hero JP, & I can never stress those words enough. I'm honestly like you're number 1 fan, forreal. Aaaand you're never going to see this, yaaayyy!!!! Because this is too corny for my liking, the eff I never talk all honest and sh/t like this, haha! Forreal though. Yeah that's all I gon' say this is too weird:S 143 Kuya JP yayyy!! (L)

So I guess my new line is...
So when's the first time you fell in love with dance?

Monday, March 10

Zomg. Thinking about course selection is keeping me from 'studying' for chem and finishing up some physics and french ish. F/cking Ms. Wong, I hate your freaking guts. You screwed me over forreal, but I hella got Millward, the perverted genius, on my side and that's all i need to ride ride ride. HAHA! Fuuhhhh, seriously though, my plans are ruined!:( I have to upgrade in the summer for math now (which btw, USED TO BE my favorite subject until this year) cus according to her, I'm stupid because i make a minor error in certain problems on a test that are worth 5/6 marks (which is like every damn question, so in other words, i fail). How incoherent is that?! A f/cking C in Math Regular but high B's in chem and phys??? GAAADD.

So without math I'm screwed; I only got 3 provincial exams:
A - Choral Music/History 12
B - Lit 12
C - CE 12
D - Writing 12
E - (Spare)
F - History/French 12
G - Eng 12
H - Art/IT 12
J - Chamber Choir 12
AP Eng

If Wong hadn't been such a pain in the ass then it would've been like:
A - Choral Music/History 12
B - Lit 12
C - CE 12
D - Ma 12
E - Bio 12
F - History/Fr 12
G - Calc 12
H - Eng 12
J - Chamber Choir 12
AP Eng, AP Calc

For now it looks like I have to drop choir to ensure that I have 4 provincials? Daaaaaym. & we're touring Europe next year! Plus I've been waiting for History ever since the 7th grade (HAHA:$) but at the same time I don't want waste my time taking French in university=\ FFFF yo, I hate school. I hate life. So much for the previously delightful weekend:'(

In the meantime however...
I want to find my hip hop. HAHAHAHAHAHA! Brown Sugar = Best movie ever (tied with Love & Basketball). Counting down for the long weekend...

Tuesday, March 4


"How appeasingly sentimental are the imposing & rhetoric goodbyes of yesterday's tomorrows"

"In the center and the middle is the main dwelling place
where the very secret between God and the soul take place"
- Saint Teresa of Avila

Monday, February 25

So enough with the negative

So yeah, this month...scratch that...this f/cken year has been quite the craazy ride with the range in emotions that got in the way of the logicaliy of things. BUT, this weekend has by far been one to remember forsheeezy forsheezy. With the new beginnings of SickSTYLZ and the dope as dope dancers that came out and did their thang... sh/tchyo i'm heeella hyped for this. I've neeever seen so much talent, dedication, AND commitment in my life. We in the making to be something great man, forreal. Ain't no other attains values and at the same time standards as us. Attitude over skill, arright? I love that line. With that as our 'mission statement' persay, it'll only bring out the best in alla us. I'll do anything for you kids, seriously haha. Gon' be draaaaama in the house with the wrath of my pops and the over-protective qualities of my moms HAHA! but nothing i haven't heard before, don't worry about me. Wrapping it up though, I'm so thankful, Lord Jesus. Thanks for leaving me speechless. Haha (L)

Tomorrow's judgement day. AKA, picking of the final individuals who have the potential to excel in this art. AKA... COTDAMN, YO we just gettin' starrrrted.

Saturday, February 16

what the heeeeell man. i want to freaking go outtttt! fucking shit yo, i'm fucken 16 and on lockdown twenty-fo' SEVEN. FUCK MAN. i think the vibrant colors of my language are veryyyy ideal for right now. ZOMG. SOMEBODY SAVE ME. OH MY FREAKING GOSH, PLEASE

Sunday, February 10

I'm tired.
So freaking tired,
...someone please send me an angel?

Wednesday, February 6

heeella hyped for this...

message for deets, skeet skeet

Friday, February 1


wtf is wrong with our generation.
that can't even be a question no more,
For it trully is a statement now.
Cause we're so fucked up
& we couldn't care less
or we're just too blind to notice
for we limit what lies ahead
casting off our fears and first impressions
Cause we're just too damn stupid
& abuse all that's laid before us.

Just thinking about how brutal the youth have been throughout this year.. Seems like as often as necessary, someone's gotta be added to the line of RIP's...
I'll be praying despite whateva.

RIP CP, BC, MC<3333
I just miss you so much right now Ninang, keep 'em safe up there

"...their lives were stole
now we'll never know

We were here all together yesterday"

Sunday, January 27

oppurtunity's a' knockin

I'm seriously loving where I'm at right now. The month started off to be heeella whack being so eemz and shiz ffff, but I don't think I've ever been this happy and so thankful for every damn thing since... never? Ha! A loootta things have been going down.

A typical weekday of the life Abigail Therese De Guzman Soriano Solis consists of:
05:30 wake up for Chamber
06:30 board the bus to escuela
07: 00 Chamber
08:30 - 03:00 l'ecole (yuck)
03:00 - 05:00 Dance Squad or Choir

05:00 - 09:00 Workskies yeye
09:30 - 11:00 SICK STYLZ SYMPHONY PRACTICE (Fridays)
10:00 - 05:30 (attempts of) Homework/sudying/sleep
& begin again!

Used to complain about all o' that, having only maaybe 3 hours of sleep a night (if i'm lucky):S
But with the new additions of work and dance, fcuk it, I'll be a freaking robot for all i care

I love work, my staff is so chill & they make it hella fun

Dance... s'it. Nothing in the world that can amount to my love and passion for it.
Sick Stylz Symphony, holla (more info to come)
I tried out for XSS Varsity team for Worlds? Can't really tell yet if that was successful or not, aha. I danced with the hugest effing headache which i let keep me back & it showed:S:S
(And yes, the headache was the result of lack of sleep/nutrition)

I'll do anything for those two things. HAHA YUP! Even work:$..............

But umm, I should be taking advantage of my weekend for sleep
so i'll make this pretty later (pretty enough fo' ya?)

Point is
I've finally found my balance

PS, 9:30 - 11 (in the night time) practices just for dance: now ain't that G
i'm fcuken livin the good life for sheeezz

Saturday, January 19

"...Those days were killerrrr."
Wish I can just rewind & kick back to start
'them simple days, yenno?

Monday, January 14

so uh...
thdgs fdgkkdgg sdgks

some things'll never change.
& you are one of them.

/too upset for words

Sunday, January 6

Fambam fun?..

@ the dinner table...

"Mom, you have no eyeborws"
"No seriously, all i see is eyeliner"
"Not even a HINT of any brow hairs"
"Becose i don't like dem tick and bussy!!"
" you'd rather have just eyeliner & no eyebrows at all?.."
"HAHAHA! Ma, you got owned once again."

"Ate! Ate! you know my friend Christian tickles me like this..."
"You know when a boy tickles you, they just want to flirt with you ;)"

"There ma, i fixed your fricken rosary"
"Thank you"
" go say sorry to Mary"
"HAHHAHAHAHAHA! you're stupid."

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .....................................................

on a side note,
Bee, why do you keep trippin' over somethin you know's already there??
bad boys yeye, so literal yet so insightful. chiiiiill bee chill

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .....................................................

one last thing,
HAHAHAHAHA! ohmygaash

Saturday, January 5

Now you understand
Just why my head's not bowed.
I don't shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud.
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say,
It's in the click of my heels,
The bend of my hair,
the palm of my hand,
The need of my care,

'Cause I'm a woman
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

- Maya Angelou

Friday, January 4

She said THAT? I can't believe she just said that.

It's different coming from another person, but coming from you i'm just plain speechless. & once again, you picked the perfect time AND words. It's like you love seeing me this way; crashing and burning at your delight. just HAD to ASSUME and follow the talk of the town.
But I guess that's to be expected.
...cus only mama knows best, huh?

Funny how you don't know a thing about me thank you very much, cus aaall you think you know, is the (false) side of me.
Because even I'm not THAT stupid enough to go about things in the ways you think i do. I don't judge people like you do
& that's a whooole lot

Which is why i deserve atleast a shitload better than your perceptions of me.

Wednesday, January 2

JAN 14th
3-7pm, OAK & 22nd
yee that's right, hella getting off school early 'cus the dopest manager in town hired me suckaas HAHA!

COME VISIT ME while i just read a whole lotta SHIT MY FIRST DAY!!
It gon' be a paaarty up in thur, yeo

... & thus the stress commenced...........
while i be makin' some moonies!!
so fuck that shiiet
... for now