Thursday, June 25

Mad Love for the King

Rest In Paradise King M.J.
"all this inspiration and NOWHERE to put it !!!!!!!" is daym right. this summer, i'm going to try my very best to take at least two classes a week. depending on the cash flow of course, gotta start saving up for school, future dance, more trips with SickSTLZ, b i l l s , etc.

got a jump start by taking Jomee's class yesterday at FG and Kuyopet's class at Harbour today. wow are these two f/ckin dope. both of you step up everytime i come man, such a crazy joy to watch and experience. i'm so so honored for sure. Jerome taught a sweet set to Sterling Sims' 'Nasty Girl'. though it took a lot of convincing, so happy that i went. the studio at Fresh Groove was so packed, it was like a freaking sauna in there. even the mirrors were fogging up! so nast! crazy how a bunch of kids outside of FG came down as well: KTL, SickSTYLZ, cats from Toronto.

freaking, Jp's class was murda too. i dont care if you dont agree with me. taught a new kind of thang to a remix of Lady Gaga's 'Just Dance'. soo different, eh?! dope none the less (stup up Jp). don't worry bud, you'll find your style soon. keep tapping into that openness. keep creating something foreign from your own, haha.

since we're on the topic of dance, holy cow has youtube sucked me in lately. :( can't believe i'm letting technology get to me, but this new laptop sure is to blame. i can watch vids of all sorts now (unlike my other hurting comp):D shooot.. check this boy out:

"my new (LB) dancer crush! lol" this guy's nuuuuuts. 15 years old! what a let down on soooo many levels, aha.

hung out with Jp after his class today at Simply Delicious. man i love that place. check that out too on down on Main Street suckas. "good AND cheap" LOL! miss that dude. thanks for always looking out for me (L). didn't get to tell him (since i was so absorbed in hearing his own life as a dancer), i really really want to take advantage of my time / body/ errthang as a dancer. career? not so sure yet. but mos def gonna do all i can to figure that out. all i know is.. i love it way too much.

on another note, so excited for tomorrow! get to see Zen and Cristina AND Moonda after how many days?! haha, haven't gotten used to not seeing them everyday.. i guess i'm excited to see Daniel too AHA! kidding bro, love you too. gonna check out Corpus one last time before i officially decide if i wanna start my post-secondary life there. then Transformers 2? maybeh? maybeh. then work, ugh. what kind of shift starts at 6:30?! ending at 10:30?! AT NIGHT?! w/e, easy money aha.

ttyl loves. the weather's getting better, i promise. kill the weather reports other wise. :)

Love, B

Tuesday, June 23

haha, well maybe my day didn't turn out so crazy, but definitely not so bad either. first REAL day at work today considering how i pretty much worked 2 9am-1 Saturday morning shifts a month. shoot, i thought it'd be a hella looong day since i'm not used to mid-day shifts yet, but 1-8 went by even quicker than my stupid Saturday mornings. probably cus i actually had stuff to do, aha. there's literally nothing to do on Saturdays ESPECIALLY in the mornings: there's no cleaning (done the night before) and no customers (we're surrounded by banks and businesses). sorry! i'm rambling again:S headed down to my brother's work so that i could get a ride home. i even started cleaning at his store (haha, we both work at Starbucks). like old times. aha for serious, if i'm at a Starbucks and i really know the people, i start working too, hahah! moms picked us up, bumbed around for a bit, now i'm here.

this morning, i was reading my horoscope. i chuckled to myself cus this one was legit too except the timing was meant for today. aha it claimed that i should set goals for myself, something like that. i actually thought this up last night and then once more half way through my shift. BUT.. i shall jot them down tomorrow. haha. i got work at 7, so i'm up in 5. + i'm way more tired now, considering the hour. geeesh, like old times. see? timing's a little off haha. but oh well!:)

goodnight until tomorrow!

love, B

Monday, June 22


duuuuuudde.. i just had to. AHA! check the vids below. jacked from since sharing is caring, i gotta share these with those of you who don't know mister carlo aguilar. this guy's hilarious. woke up to this about an hour-ish ago and i'm STILL laughing. daym, i know my day gon' be gold now.

:| boys get naked when their upset?

this kid reminds me of David after dentist

k well, have a good morning! enjoy the clouds today. no serious; the grass can be green again. yah?

love, B

Sunday, June 21

"Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn"

today was pretty chill. woke up earlier than usual. today was the SickSTYLZ (2nd gen) Auds. hoooolly yo, 48/49 kids came out. & let's just say, there will probably be more than 2 white G's this time compared to last year, haha! damn, everyone was doope. played videographer for the day; had the pleasure of taking a couple hints at what next year may look like. super crasy too, how much people can progress and improve within a matter of hours, couple run through's, few extra go-at-it's. confidence just kept rising and rising, couldn't help but smile while watching. congratulations ya'll!

got home and just chiiiiilled. youtubem, twitter, the works. gad am i getting sucked into technology:(

i jacked this from Aj's fb notes aha. [btw, soooo choked you didn't come out today. i guess it's understandable] now my head was throbbing like crazy, but it actually made me feel so much better just reading it!


It's long but it's worth it. But have a chance to read it. It's dope.

1. Drink plenty of Water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants, and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
4. Live with the 3 E's --- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
5. Make time to practice meditation, yoga, and prayer.
6. Play more games.
7. Read more books than you did in 2008.
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
9. Sleep for 8-10 hours
10. Take a 10-30 minute walk everyday. And while you walk, smile.

11. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control.
13. Don't over do it. Keep your limits.
14. Don't take yourself to seriously. No one else does.
15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
16. Dream more while you are awake.
17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply of the curriculum that appear and fade away, like Algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and Laugh more.
24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

25. Call your family often.
26. Each day give something good to others.
27. Forgive everyone for everything.
28. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
30. What other people think of you is none of your business.
31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

32. Do the right thing!
33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
34. God Heals everything.
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
37. The best is yet to come.
38. When you wake up alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.
39. Your inner most is always happy. So, be Happy!

Last but not the least:
40. Please let everyone know about these if you care about them.


interesting how that'd come from you. haha! playin' buddy, miss you too even though i don't say it. much love to ya (L)

i think i'm going to print this, make it really funky and then stick on my wall ceiling. it's great to wake up to the wonderful reminders of how to live the abundance of life, don't cha think?

love, B

Saturday, June 20

i really need to just w r i t e . . .
i miss this place .

brb for a tiiiny bit more.

Tuesday, June 16

watched it a second time today!! with Zen, Cristina, Mark, Ryan, and Daniel. wow we're horrible in the theaters. sorry:$ this movie will never get old!:) "it has like... everything... !!"

back to studying for my history provincial.

later days.

Sunday, June 14

WOW POSTING ANOTHER ONE SO FAST (cus Zenia's a genius...). she decides to freestyle her woes of studying for history in the Beauty and the Beast tune..

"i'm a little scared,
i am not prepared
for this history test:("

damn, s'better if you heard it! one of those you-shoulda-been-there kind of moments. i freaking love you man.

"wth, are you weird?!" HAHAHA

(whispers) "what's a chode?"
(whispers back) "a small penis.."
(still LOL) "Daniel what's a chode?"
"i don't know.."
"come on Daniel!"
"...reminds me of longanisa!"
"Daniel, is it a small penis?"
"is it a small man's organ?!"

while me and Cristina were trying to ask Daniel what Vietminh was, Zenia looks it up on urban dictionary and recites the definitions out loud to us...

imagine the LOL's man.
sorry Zenia, you're the real weird one.
"you know when your sitting on your tailbone for a really really long time and you stand up then sit back down.. it tickles! :$" HAHAHA you're such a funny one Zen.

PS shoot, grad commencement was yesterday. update later!


Love, B

Saturday, June 13

wow Araujo, you're seriously killing me. my part of our grad class gift to you is way harder than i intended it to be. sleepless night before grad yaaaaayy..

Wednesday, June 10

eff man, my tummy is kiiilling me:( i wanted to do a hefty blog today, but literally can't. when i have cramps, i die. haha=( but today in my last english class with Nannery, she had us share with everyone where we thought we'd be 10 years from now. all i said was that i plan to be California. haha. i was just so happy with simply being able to share my dream that i didn't elaborate + she doesn't like the the idea of the 'American dream' or the fact that i apparently haven't even picked a particular part of Cali that i'd like to lie in, so she just moved on, haha. but actually, in detail..

10 years from now..
at age 28, i'll be living in California in sunny sunny Irvine (look it up, its daym beautiful). since i'm not too clear on what i'd like to do as of right now, i'll still be in school in UCI Berkley getting my Masters in English or Psychology. if anything, i reeeally hope i'll still be dancing as well trying to pay for my tuition, haha. "a dancer's life is very short" & i plan on taking full advantage of it. maybe i'll be like Rino or Teresa Espinosa: still dancing, still dope at it, still healthy, still.. wow. haha! shiiii. i hope to at least be married with (at least) thoughts on having a kid in the near future. haha, i'd like to have at least one kid, but it's hard to tell with how our current generation is going: marrying in their late 20's / early 30's. heck, maybe i'll be an established youtube artist, HAHA! actually, that's more like 5 years from now...

a graand grand dream of mine is to live in England actually, somewhere in Europe. i'd like to take my Masters at Oxford while finding me a nice English man! haha:$ half kidding. i'd reeeally like to go to Oxford though.. i'll probably be more of a pro singer with a record deal an' aaall dat.. like Adele:$:$:$ or like Tatyanna Ali! juggling Harvard and Fresh Prince and the singing deal. i guess we'll see =)

& in exactly 10 hours from now, i'll be heading down to the Church to do our last Mass at St. Pat's. scary how that lines up with what i was writing in the proceeding paragraph.

my tummy is seriously getting to me. i'm supposed to be finished working on my gift to Araujo:'( sorry Moonda, mine's going to be late..

Love B

broken glories

Abigail Therese 3 days 'til grad and already saying goodbye's ... CC love with Araujo, eng / lit inspiratinons with Nannery♥
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"a dancer's life is very short"

Tuesday, June 9

i think everyone should have long entries...

...really assess how you been doing without interruptiong from the outside world. anyway

sorry!! last & final blog of the day, i promise. just really trying to soak (my last week) all in, maybe something extremely pivotal will happen years from now; i just want to be able to understand how i'd come about such Greatness.

now that i reeeeeally think about it, today was such a profound day. full of "last's" and potential.

this morning was my last Chamber class. i guess it didn't really kick in as hard as i thought it would cus there's still Grad choir tomorrow morning, meaning my last morning of waking up everyday at 5:45am for school. though it was expected / almost obliged to do so, i finally said my piece on the put-up chair. put-up chair is when time is taken out of class / rehearsal there are several things that i obviously do (ie: singing, dancing, the works) but its time and place that matter most. i pick my moments, if you haven't already figured that out, not for any specific reason, just when it feels right. hard to explain, but hopefully you're at least thinking about it. also hoping it drills in their heads this time haha (no pun intended). helps that Tallon was looking at me straight in the eye, but who knows. it was rather comforting, i'll admit. wow, this is really fragmented.. but anyway.. i'm happy i went up. it felt rewarding; wouldn't have felt the same any other day i don't think. i really poured my heart out, trying to piece together on the spot what i wanted to say (i'll elaborate more on that later). it really did feel good to have silence for once, so flattered that it was when i was talking too. please note that i'm very vague right now, but thank you so much Araujo, just for absolutely everything. thank you to John, Joey, Anna, Shenette, Marie, Michelle G, Nick, Tristan, Joe, Marvin, Christine, Tim Pang. you guys made it worthwhile for me for sure; just watching you guys excel.. its been a pleasure for sure.

last Lit class from Nannery too. eff, and i didn't even realize til later in the day too. i'm so buying my textbook, probably going to transfer all my notes from my binder and into my text too. my journal for my graduating year yo, $80 ain't even worth the honest words of Ms. Nannery (though i am broke). i'll mos def take you with me wherever i go, Love doesn't stop here. goodness, this is hella fragemented too. thank you so much Ms. Nannery. wouldn't be the person i am today if it weren't for you.

this isn't a last anything but i've been really thinking about a lot of things lately: Cali, dance, music, singing?, stupid stuff, my dad. everything just swimming in my head, some thoughts drowning, some gasping for air, some chillin' on the surface or within the depths within itself.

i reeeeally want / need to move to Cali. i feel like i can't literally move on and just live life unless i'm on my own so that i may fully realize what's been given to me. "i don't want to do anything without failing at it first." i want to start f r e s h, free of everything and anything: of judgements, expectations, fronts, the one end of ideals. i want to actually do everything on my own, not beginning with these distractors but with my own open mind. i've been so concerned for situations and individuals that weren't meant for my concern, its time that i rediscover myself and give to the world.

Music. shoot, what can i say? there's just way too much. i always think about what i'm gonna do with it now that no one's going to make me. i've grown up so disconnected from my first Love, my first language, performing and taking lessons because of the "potential", to support my family later on, to give my Thanks, to use my gifts amd so on. don't get me wrong, not that i disagree but that i have to have to reclaim it once again.. this time on mine own terms.

i really want to dance. all this feelings of discouragement and this unseen love i have for it is tearing me apart. "it's not my chance yet", "you gotta push yourself", "find your inspiration and just stick to it".. these all serve as reminders of what's yet to come for me, but i can't help but feel such discouragement all the time. i've been dancing for 10 years now, and so many have flown by me. i know its my own and levels of distinction that's keeping me from me, but i don't know. i don't know how to get out it. there's this spirit within me just waiting for me tap into it.

singing's always been a challenge (which is good). its so good to fight for what you love, & i haven't given up (nor will i ever). i've learned, most especially this year, that you don't always win; you can only convince people for too long, sometimes not at all. but shoot, i love the battle! i love experiencing the struggle in between the excellence that seemingly does not conquer. of only the world can agree. wow, drifted from my initial point.. i've been singing for as long as i can remember, but i've actually been singing since age 6. to this day, i still can't remember why i started with it in the first place. i've been caught up with doing it for the relief or benefit of others, it almost feels ornate in me.

so this leads to my point mentioned in the proceeding paragraphs: discovery of self.
"you have good Center"

i guess my journey officially begins here. huh.

Love, B
My Twittascope: Cancer
If you can remain silent today, you'll come out of this tangled web looking like a real hero. You can see both sides of a problem now yet you realize that there is no straightforward solution. Pretending that you have an answer will only create disappointment; your smartest strategy is to wait it out. You may have something important to add to the discussion, but it will be even more relevant in a day or two. Tuesday, June 9, 2009

k fiiine. i usually never (ha ha, 'usually never') follow horoscopes but contrary to above just isn't my style anyway. let's give 'em props though, those trully are words of wisdom. its the context i'm after, not so much the fact that it's within the stars as some people like to call it. though i looove the stars - k anyway.. almost forgot what i absolutely live by: silence is just as important too. its within these moments of respectful admiration that reveals our own thoughts that have been off limits to sharing for some time now.

"you have really good center" something i've been fighting for. amazing amazing amazing. he got another 'nother thing going on too:

you'll do great next year; so worth the wait.

Monday, June 8

snap, what a HUGE success!! made a grand total of $1923. give it up for your administrative assistant (though my ACTUAL admin JB eft his station TO ME every now and then). lol. thank you thank you to all who came out to support us this year: OHJOY Ice Cream, DJ Adlib, respectfuls from FG, Harbour Dance, T-Dot, Victoria, family, friends and dancers alike.. much much love.

dude, someone play ninja with me. funniest shit ever !!!!!!
i love just watching, HAHAHAHAH!

btw, just realized a couple moments ago that this week is my last week of highschool. shiiiiiii nigga! & how lovely, chamber every damn morning. s'all good in this hood, one more week to bear it all out. thank you Jesus for all the blessings.

why am i swearing so much. just had a two hour nap but i'm still so tired! probsssly why. i'll go wash my mouth after i brush my teef.

bear with me.

Love, B

Sunday, June 7

come one come all !!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, June 3

"least popular attractions"
"the Statue of Puberty!"
"..and on my left is Viagara Falls"
"...I said least popular attractions"

AHAHAHA! can't help but LOL as i overhear my brother watching reruns of Who's Line is it Anyway? on youtube. today was full of those moments, mhmm:)

apparently me getting mad at my little brother this morning was a hilarious story to tell. it wasn't supposed to be thank you very much!! mostly my fault, i'm not very good at telling stories; i sound like an idiot. hahahaha. i still love you little brother of course=)

"i'm dressed more like a boy than you are today, Mark" mind you i was all scrubs today with my basketball shorts and big T. i question that boy sometimes. *NOT IMPLYING ANYTHING** aha, only something we'd understand=) LOVE YOU!! :)

D block spare, choir (we're still singing?..), prepared for the sort of surprise at break.. teehee.. btw it was decided that we would be skipping C block religion since all grade 12's had rel at the same time (smart choice!), lit review class. lunch was chiiiiiiill. went off campus and took a little walk down Main:) Starbucks for Zen, 7-11 for slurpess for Moonds and her sister.. another beautiful day! walked back and then the surprise...

(Christina) DUN DUN DUN . . .

grad run!!!!!!!!

for those of you unknown of this supposedly un-derivative idea: grad run is when all the graduates skip class all together to simply run across campus while school is still in session. this may involve hollering, screaming, oodles of silly string, blow horns, (in my case) injuries:(, cars, loud music, horns honking, grade 8's getting scared (HAHA), and so on...

i'll be honest and say i was kj at first. i didn't want to do it: "it's so lame you guys!" but the LG in me unleashed itself once Moonds whipped out her 10 cans of silly string & 4 mini blow horns to split between the 4 of us:D:D:D:D so unexpected of her!! met up in the caf. shoot, it was already getting crazy, so much noise everywhere! hella ruined the surprise, haha. & not everyone was in class yet! but oh well, we were all pretty hyped! and a lot of people already knew which wasn't supposed to happen but ngehh.. since we were getting super loud we brought it down to the parking lot. once everyone was out we raaaann that shit like no tomorrow yo! with jonathan, daniel, and sean [and me tagging right behind(a)] leading the pack. daym.. soooo fun yo! since this is tradition, a lot of the teachers immediately shut their doors right when they see us bombarding the place, but some stupid grade 8 decides to open one so i shot him right in the face with my silly string:) apparently jade got locked out cus Mr. Guardano wouldn't let her in.. then Geeni shot her with her watergun and yelled "Bow down to Grad'09" HAHAHAHAHA! ooooly you Gen=) shot a couple more grade 8's, blew the horn right at people's faces, and was actually tired after the first run, LOL. met up in front of the caf. had a couple chants of "GRAD '09 (wuh?) GRAD '09 (wuh?)", water fight commenced, pictures were taken, videos were recorded, props were given all before taking a second shot at it.

second time around though, i scraped my arm preeetty bad:( i slipped as i turned the corner ..while running... & caught myself on the brick wall of the main building ..while running... & literally grazed my arm on the wall ..while still running. forgot that i was still techniqually leaning on the wall. haha! how st00ps am i(H) couldn't help it! was having so much fun! met up at the caf again and continued the water fight, more hollering, more pictures, more vids, more cra-aaazyness ness. ye=)

Bevacqua the principle headed over with Donnici vice principle only to dismiss us!!!!!! usually they get angry with the students since they had hoped that they'd be the one class that would start a new traidition of getting rid of the old "immature" one. 'course it always fails, aha! shiiiii, admin can never get mad at us yo, we're literally too good hahahah.

stayed behind to get my arm cleaned up then to actually clean up the place. Marino and Ferrari were actally displeased to see me in the office all cut up, haha. i'm sorry! reb for a day, my bad my bad. fun while it lasted!

they all decided to head down to the beach but i'd head down there after Jp's class. once i got home my eyes got all itchy and started swelling up again!!!!!!!!!!!! Kuya Jippee's class and Kits were off the list (u). sorry Jp:( re-encoutered with YOUTUBE and took another walk to the grocery stores near by to pick up some hot dog buns for the workshop.


i'll probably post the updated one soon.
as for now, COME Y'ALL!!
cheapest workshop ever + BBQ + party it up with Sickstyyyyylz =)

took another walk in the lovely sun=) arrived home in time for dinner and So You Think You Can Dance <3>getting addicted to Twitter... & now GOODNIGHT.

sorry for the long post again! but expect more! didn't realize how free my days will be without homework & choir. daym happy? oui oui!

enjoy the sun while its still up! it'll start raining next monday:(

Love love love, B

Tuesday, June 2

hahaha, i wasn't planning on writing so soon BUT.. i had another good day:)

(another)hot hot day at school shiiiiet.. but the morning air was nice=) spent my spare studying outside while it was still breezy and the sun wasn't at it's highest. studied for History with Checo and Ryan while Anna & Marie let us mooch off their Thai meal that Shennette and Leanne had made for them for their Foods final. zomg, best dessert ever: mango with rice in condensed milk!

but then my eyes started to get really itchy again, so i took Checo's Visine... and they itched even more!!!! HLYCRP! they bugged me so much! i kept rubbing away at them while i was righting my test 'til i finally escaped to the bathroom to go wash my face. funny thing is, it was only then did they start to get red!! and REALLY red!! my right eye looked like it had Pink Eye (though i'm positivei don't**) everybody was getting super grossed out and concerned, i can't blame them. verdict is i might have alergies?.. i slept it off during break. daym yo, that 15 min nap felt like a whole hour man, for serious.

english was fine, then grad committee, then history..

then a surprise from sheila!!! she had the need to be spontaneous and wanted to use her free movie tickets! 'Sheila you da best, Sheila you da best' daym RIGHT! Ming and I ended up being spontaneous too. oh man, Up (in 3D) is SUCH a good movie!!!! my new fav fasho! oh man, i haven't seen a movie where i can cry AND laugh 4 times as much=) eff, i starting tearing up pretty bad 15/20 minutes in? haha:$ we watched the 3:30 screening, the theater was still pretty full. i think we were the loudest ones and there were kids too, LOL! aw man, i forgot how st00ps Ming is when watching a movie hahahaha. it's always so fun with these two... (L)

but yeah, that is all! just wanted to talk about Up!! it made me so happy man. hahahaha:) moral of the story is... :O Transformers is coming out soon too! jk.. not really.. BUT WATCH UP!!:D

Love, B

Monday, June 1

i'll be writing the longest post of my life by at least mid-June. ride with me as i rage through the my last 11/12 days of highschool... i'll have lots to write about forsure.

for now, follow me on twitter!! haha, they're like one-lined blogs?=) "it's like talking to yourself" HAHAHA! so true. but i update quite regularly now. harsh converted man. haha.

i must get back to my stupid history test and writing YET ANOTHER choral scholarship essay cus apparently, the last one wasn't the right one!!:@:@:@:@:@ all-nighter #4? maybeh! i slaved two nights over the last one though, i'm pretty mad Araujo!! SO.. this means i should get started.

once more, breathe easy & enjoy the sun!!!! :):):):):)
i'll be back in a bit.

Love, B