just speaking for myself

truth.

it's so hard to stay true to your beliefs when you've been incredibly blessed with such an open mind and a pure heart. I'll stand for everything that Talib is talkin bout in this clip, because I've either witnessed or been educated about it myself. if you really dig down deep to the root of it all, we all believe in the same things whether we practice them differently or not or have been following them from certain respectable people. see, I've been told by others that it takes so much of a person to attest to that and be unshaken, but why do I still find myself trembling from a place so unknown to me? out of fear? embarrassment? helplessness?? maybe it's a good thing after all, a reminder of that exact impartiality, of that openness You've created for me. soon I hope to know.

Love, B

"What we all do is art, you know? We are noticers, we’re sensitives, we notice the rhythms in certain things and we identify them, and then we coin terms for them, and most of the world is not able to keep up. But some people just have that innate thing that allows them to express themselves in a way the majority can follow. That’s when you’re affecting culture."

- Pharrell Williams

some goods of the day

'tis what you do when you're sick on your day off.

cus I'm bored and this is cute

once in a blue moon I do 'em and trust, they actually make me think.

NEXTS:

Next person you’ll kiss: ha
Next movie you want to see: Despicable Me!
Next time you’re going out: tom night after 247
Next place you’ll take vacation: either the Phils or SD
Next thing you are going to do after filling this survey out: crash. long day ahead
Next thing you are going to eat: a bagel. or 2
Next time you plan to be drunk: nope!
Next thing you are going to do outside: enjoy the friggen SUN while I walk t

LASTS:

Last kiss: ha
Last person you hugged: Zen Nuuks
Last person you spoke to: the brother. 'Night'
Last alcoholic beverage: absolut like 4 years ago
Last movie: Toy Story 3 (L)
Last person you thought of: Lanie Valencia and her lovely chocolate cupcakes :$
Last school you went to: CCC
Last person you said I love you to: haha Lanie =)
Last run in with the Law: nope
Last fight you were in: haven't argued with my mom in a while
Last person you MSN’ed: Aj Cabanos!
Last thing you ate: chocolate chip mint ice cream
Last thing you saved up money for: haa.. SD trip

Firsts

First car: nope
First pet: nope
First computer: red Dell Inspiron
First concert: Rock the Bells Tour '09
First alcoholic beverage: absolut
First time you stayed out all night: only a lot of almosts. practicing at Ming's til 4am back in '05? o.O
First best friend: Jennifer Santos
First job: barista at Starbucks. rolling lumpia. $2.50/100 and I made 100 an hour. lol
First school: St. Andrew's Elementary
First movie you watched in a theater: Inspector Gadget!
First thing you really saved up money for: actually saved and actually spent was my nano haha

"I keep trying to catch my breath, but can't seem to..."

"...I love dance for a lot of reasons and one of those reasons is we can be who we want to be, feel what we want to feel, but still keep your true self. When I teach this piece I always tell my students to engage in the song and actually become the words. As silly as it sounds I tell them to act as a "rapper" to gain that confidence and "swag". It was so cool to see everyone transform and see everyone with a stronger attitude. I also tell them as soon as you walk out of my class to make sure you leave that persona in the studio. Being humble is a very important trait to me now. I sadly used to act like that, but I realized it wasn't me. Leave that attitude to the rappers/entertainers who actually have millions of dollars, nice cars, big houses, and can back up what they say. We are dancers not A-list celebrities."

taken off the info box below that vid on Youtube. this guy is so different now. I'll admit that I was never a fan of him before, cus even he admits that he had a whack attitude back then. as whack as it sounds on part, I love it when I become a fan of the now big time choreographers such as this guy. taking class from someone is so revealing. for me, it's like getting to know the person and trying to see or figure out what he/she sees and feels during the creation process as they're teaching.. forreal, personally it's like such a tremendous experience. ugh, an undescribable feeling. Brian's class was exactly like that. [might I add, my whole SD trip was EXACTLY like that] he kept telling us about how much he just loves Vancouver and how he wants stay (trust, he said it pretty often hahaha). he even apologized for not being able to take the classes before his because he was calling the airlines trying to rebook his flight and stuff. he even goes up to YOU trying to make conversation as well. still beating myself up right now cus I didn't get to thank him for class. [stuff like that is really important to me]

I'm sorry that I've been posting more vids than my own ish. it's been a while since I just sat and typed or wrote. on the real, I've just been so.. distracted? caught up? mm.. livin the life? haha. I'm sure I've noted it in previous posts (just not well enough), but dance has definitely taken over my life and I am so very happy that it is :) haha. deets deets later. I'm probs not even making any sense right now haha. skeet skeet.

Love, B