Monday, March 16

Couch Potaaato

So it's a super nice day outside, nice breeze sun shining minimal clouds. Right now, however, I prefer to stay inside. How typical, B. Scratch that, all the sun's gone. But there's no more rain! Who am I kidding, I love the rain hahaha. Oh goodness, I'm rambling again. Nonetheless, an oppurtune time to gather and recollect while I prospect this retrospect that causes clutter. A lot stuff's has been going on around me, obvi I can't help but observe (but never intrude). A lot of speculations, un-thoughtfulness, opinionated peoples, hate, misjudgements, absolute rudenss, etc etc etc. Sucks that it's all negative, fsho. So I'd just like to say:

I hope you'll understand this time around. You can go about yo' biiiidnezz now. Unfortunately I was able to synthesize this long rant that resulted from your antics (editted version):


"[You] hurting everyone, and more so, [yourself] gives me reason to drop [people like you].
Because in hurting people I selflessly care about, [you] don't realize [you're] hurting yourself internally more than you think.
Since [you're] not aware of it being all caught up in the 'blissful' and 'flawless' beginning, the reality [you've] been avoiding will come full circle and with full force.
Then [you'll] come crying back expecting [me] to be the same selfless person [I've] always been."


As for you, I am officially over you. Nothing's different, nothing at all: I'm still tired of your games,
still considering your side, still thinking about you... but now, I'm choosing not to put up with it no more, not even for you. You can go and chase your dream now, I really don't blame you at all (though the bitterness that may be perceived). Thanks for lying to me all these years. Thanks for letting me fall for your tricks. Thanks for allowing me to change myself for you. Thanks for not caring. Thanks for never knowing.

4 comments:

cas. said...

Hope you your good babe! Let's go out, clear minds, out with the problems and just go enjoy a nice outting!

cas. said...

Hope you your good babe! Let's go out, clear minds, out with the problems and just go enjoy a nice outting!

1010 said...

snaps, good read. i always want to blog like this, but my words never seem to come out right. so gjgj

and.. thank you <3

Lanie said...

that's not who i think it's about is it? :O

btw i miss you maaaaaaan :(