some goods of the day

'tis what you do when you're sick on your day off.

cus I'm bored and this is cute

once in a blue moon I do 'em and trust, they actually make me think.

NEXTS:

Next person you’ll kiss: ha
Next movie you want to see: Despicable Me!
Next time you’re going out: tom night after 247
Next place you’ll take vacation: either the Phils or SD
Next thing you are going to do after filling this survey out: crash. long day ahead
Next thing you are going to eat: a bagel. or 2
Next time you plan to be drunk: nope!
Next thing you are going to do outside: enjoy the friggen SUN while I walk t

LASTS:

Last kiss: ha
Last person you hugged: Zen Nuuks
Last person you spoke to: the brother. 'Night'
Last alcoholic beverage: absolut like 4 years ago
Last movie: Toy Story 3 (L)
Last person you thought of: Lanie Valencia and her lovely chocolate cupcakes :$
Last school you went to: CCC
Last person you said I love you to: haha Lanie =)
Last run in with the Law: nope
Last fight you were in: haven't argued with my mom in a while
Last person you MSN’ed: Aj Cabanos!
Last thing you ate: chocolate chip mint ice cream
Last thing you saved up money for: haa.. SD trip

Firsts

First car: nope
First pet: nope
First computer: red Dell Inspiron
First concert: Rock the Bells Tour '09
First alcoholic beverage: absolut
First time you stayed out all night: only a lot of almosts. practicing at Ming's til 4am back in '05? o.O
First best friend: Jennifer Santos
First job: barista at Starbucks. rolling lumpia. $2.50/100 and I made 100 an hour. lol
First school: St. Andrew's Elementary
First movie you watched in a theater: Inspector Gadget!
First thing you really saved up money for: actually saved and actually spent was my nano haha

"I keep trying to catch my breath, but can't seem to..."

"...I love dance for a lot of reasons and one of those reasons is we can be who we want to be, feel what we want to feel, but still keep your true self. When I teach this piece I always tell my students to engage in the song and actually become the words. As silly as it sounds I tell them to act as a "rapper" to gain that confidence and "swag". It was so cool to see everyone transform and see everyone with a stronger attitude. I also tell them as soon as you walk out of my class to make sure you leave that persona in the studio. Being humble is a very important trait to me now. I sadly used to act like that, but I realized it wasn't me. Leave that attitude to the rappers/entertainers who actually have millions of dollars, nice cars, big houses, and can back up what they say. We are dancers not A-list celebrities."

taken off the info box below that vid on Youtube. this guy is so different now. I'll admit that I was never a fan of him before, cus even he admits that he had a whack attitude back then. as whack as it sounds on part, I love it when I become a fan of the now big time choreographers such as this guy. taking class from someone is so revealing. for me, it's like getting to know the person and trying to see or figure out what he/she sees and feels during the creation process as they're teaching.. forreal, personally it's like such a tremendous experience. ugh, an undescribable feeling. Brian's class was exactly like that. [might I add, my whole SD trip was EXACTLY like that] he kept telling us about how much he just loves Vancouver and how he wants stay (trust, he said it pretty often hahaha). he even apologized for not being able to take the classes before his because he was calling the airlines trying to rebook his flight and stuff. he even goes up to YOU trying to make conversation as well. still beating myself up right now cus I didn't get to thank him for class. [stuff like that is really important to me]

I'm sorry that I've been posting more vids than my own ish. it's been a while since I just sat and typed or wrote. on the real, I've just been so.. distracted? caught up? mm.. livin the life? haha. I'm sure I've noted it in previous posts (just not well enough), but dance has definitely taken over my life and I am so very happy that it is :) haha. deets deets later. I'm probs not even making any sense right now haha. skeet skeet.

Love, B

sweet, sweet Georgia

'twas a day of love, 'tis a day of longing. you know that feeling, when you were once close with someone or attached to something? for what seems longer than a while, you've grown in love with whatever it was, doing whatever it took to maintain security. it turn, it/he/she allowed for your own growth as a being, an inidividual, a mere subject of substance. of greatness, of rarity, of bliss (haven't used that word in a long time now, huh). you've taken a meticulous amount of care for [it]; gave more than a hundred percent whenever necessary. even then, seemed like every minute of every day was of importance since [he] never left you mind. you prayed about [her] before sleeping, smiled about [it] upon wakening, dreamt about [him] while day dreaming. there has never been and will never be such a person or thing that draws the body mind and soul into your efforts as [she] once did.

ha, I ain't talkin bout no boy or a man who stole my heart. as real as real, I'm speaking about music, my life as a musician. :$ the choral arts to be exact. I can go on and on for forever trying to akdshasu. explain? re-create? *sigh** can't even pick the right word. those words above alone took a while to let out. my blogs from March til June of last year paint the picture better. now that's some real shit right there.

I had the opportunity to visit my love today, but I just couldn't bring myself to do it. "the feeling when you were once close with someone or attatched to something..." and then not seeing them for a while. I could care less about how awkward it feels to see all your homies again or the feeling the potential you once had now gone to waste, for example. more like, how it took Ally years to visit Noah again: something had to trigger it. (this applies to anything I've ever amount to as of late) sure as hell hope that it won't take me years tho



can we cover this one, love?

Love, B

so much for bloggin more often, eh? haha! I'd like to note that this is improvement, aright. lol. msn conversing with the GREAT Carmen Sit (L); she brought up the whole "dance as a career" thing. I told her how I think about it all the time and how I keep changing my mind and what not, but what I really loved actually, was her response to the same question. she's totally right!! especially with something as delicate as this. I'm not sure if I want to have something I('ve always) love(d) to be my job. haha, ironic huh. but forreal.. I don't know why haha! I mean, I don't want it to get tainted with all these bad as well as good experiences that arise, but of course I'd love to share what I've grown up with and detail why it's so important to me or how it's affected me. stuff like that y'know. I guess we shall see :) right now, I'm just in love with learning, and I hope to be for the rest of my life.

aaaanyway, just a couple good ones before I crash

no need for an intro on this one, lol

if you haven't already, meet Jill. she's friggen dope. me and her go waaayy back. haha we both started singing with the same instructor, same elementary school, same high school, same choir. shoooot (L)


night y'all!

Love, B