9:50pm and I've done prep for 1/10 possible essay Q's for my Engl final. actually, what a fool is I!? I've been on that same one for almost an hour now and not even half done. f[m]l is right. ha. but ye, finally gonna start blogging (at least almost) daily now. hella inspired by this love's awareness/confidence in the real. heading back to basics and just gonna write like tomorrow lives, how life feeds my enthusiasm for it in turn. excuse my lack of html skills :$
#nowwatching
man, I just realy miss singing.
I've never used the term before, but I believe it is roflcopter? HAHA
still got a 1200 word reflective essay to write as well as a bonus assignement that I def need to try to get to. yeah? =\
Love, B
Thursday, April 22
there was something that I just reeeeally wanted to write down. I remembered during work actually, and I wanted to write like an 'X' or something on my knuckle so that I can just recall what happened at that time of day. I don't even remember if it was just a random memory that popped to mind, that 'angered baby' picture I can never get over, a kick in the azz that I needed, a "You-know-what-I-just-realized" type thing. or somethin. I didn't write mark an 'X' anywhere and I haven't written anything down. I hope it'll get at me soon (u) I guess there goes my 'X' then? hm.
anytoots, World Religions at 9am, Psych at 1pm.
be sure to mark your X's tom, k. make sure you foster even a hint of joy within that millisecond of your day. oh & smile. :)
Love, B
anytoots, World Religions at 9am, Psych at 1pm.
be sure to mark your X's tom, k. make sure you foster even a hint of joy within that millisecond of your day. oh & smile. :)
Love, B
Sunday, April 4
halfway to Destiny
such perfect timing ...
chyup, my Moleskine has def taken over. gonna try my best and keep up with this of course and not use my tumblr. ever.. hahaha. gonna keep this short and sweet tho.
this week's been hella good. in total, I've had about 12 hrs of dance and that's not including Sickstylz, Set It Off, or the rehearsal time in between both on Sunday. shoot, can't believe that I used to rehearse for hours on end every single day too cus right now I'm HELLA beat. it's been amazing tho. Bianca and Tracy from Choreo Cookies and Andrew from So Real were in town for Don't Stop the Love. got to hang out and take class with as well as from them too. I've learned so much just from those 3 in and out of the studio, I can never feel anymore humbled.
cutting down to it tho, never realized how much I've been losing myself in alla this ish that's been going on lately. I mean, 'tis why I haven't been blogging [and sometimes writing]. not cus I'm emo lol, but cus I've just been really trying to figure and sort things out. really trying to understand why things are the way they are or turn our the way they do and just make something out of it.
m a k e s o m e t h i n g o u t o f i t . . . see that's what I've been forgeting. I read this little thang offa something somewhere some time this week saying "You don't find yourself, you create yourself." it hit me so hard cus I've been living exactly that first bit almost my entire life because of how rough it's always been. but that's just it. I've been losing sight of where I've come from. how each day I would literally take all of it, the good the not so great, lay it right in front of me, and fashion it into something else. 'tis where my Music comes from. don't matter if you see it or not, but I leave my heart and soul out there on stage or in the studio. not to impress people, not even to impress myself, but cus those two are places are where I can not only be happy with myself but also be proud of myself. proud of were I've come from, how I got there, and for what will come next. proud that I can triumph no matter what. proud that there's some sort of good in this world, that there's a place I can settle in. proud that there's a place for a girl like me whose dreams are too big to reach sometimes. haha.
with that said, you create You. don't let anybody stop you from just doing so.
Love, B
chyup, my Moleskine has def taken over. gonna try my best and keep up with this of course and not use my tumblr. ever.. hahaha. gonna keep this short and sweet tho.
this week's been hella good. in total, I've had about 12 hrs of dance and that's not including Sickstylz, Set It Off, or the rehearsal time in between both on Sunday. shoot, can't believe that I used to rehearse for hours on end every single day too cus right now I'm HELLA beat. it's been amazing tho. Bianca and Tracy from Choreo Cookies and Andrew from So Real were in town for Don't Stop the Love. got to hang out and take class with as well as from them too. I've learned so much just from those 3 in and out of the studio, I can never feel anymore humbled.
cutting down to it tho, never realized how much I've been losing myself in alla this ish that's been going on lately. I mean, 'tis why I haven't been blogging [and sometimes writing]. not cus I'm emo lol, but cus I've just been really trying to figure and sort things out. really trying to understand why things are the way they are or turn our the way they do and just make something out of it.
m a k e s o m e t h i n g o u t o f i t . . . see that's what I've been forgeting. I read this little thang offa something somewhere some time this week saying "You don't find yourself, you create yourself." it hit me so hard cus I've been living exactly that first bit almost my entire life because of how rough it's always been. but that's just it. I've been losing sight of where I've come from. how each day I would literally take all of it, the good the not so great, lay it right in front of me, and fashion it into something else. 'tis where my Music comes from. don't matter if you see it or not, but I leave my heart and soul out there on stage or in the studio. not to impress people, not even to impress myself, but cus those two are places are where I can not only be happy with myself but also be proud of myself. proud of were I've come from, how I got there, and for what will come next. proud that I can triumph no matter what. proud that there's some sort of good in this world, that there's a place I can settle in. proud that there's a place for a girl like me whose dreams are too big to reach sometimes. haha.
with that said, you create You. don't let anybody stop you from just doing so.
Love, B
Saturday, February 20
hi, I need to blog more. writing in my legit Moleskine has kept me from doing so, lol [btw, I got one last month!! srsly need to update man].
kinda random but, AHH!! I love hip hop:) Really lovin' this Indie stuff too. Much love to Ashleigh Ball & Hey Ocean! and Ms. Jaycelyn Brown & Said The Whale<3 Epiphany right now that just begged for me to write:
"I love this 'swagg' style cus of this confidence that erupts from me while [performing the choreography of the sort]. Even more so, I'll always have my heart in R&B....All the feelings involved[,] the commitment required to grasp the connection with the music[,] that urgency & just how foreign the process feels [...It all] just makes me work harder [unleashing something almost immaculate]."
Shaun Evaristo you are amazing[.]
Love, B
kinda random but, AHH!! I love hip hop:) Really lovin' this Indie stuff too. Much love to Ashleigh Ball & Hey Ocean! and Ms. Jaycelyn Brown & Said The Whale<3 Epiphany right now that just begged for me to write:
"I love this 'swagg' style cus of this confidence that erupts from me while [performing the choreography of the sort]. Even more so, I'll always have my heart in R&B....All the feelings involved[,] the commitment required to grasp the connection with the music[,] that urgency & just how foreign the process feels [...It all] just makes me work harder [unleashing something almost immaculate]."
Shaun Evaristo you are amazing[.]
Love, B
Friday, January 8
I love to love
it's so beautiful to just let it out, forcing whatever you've been keeping in the back burner to jump out and just hope for a bittersweet ending at the very least. just as well, it's amazing what happens when you just put yourself out there. even further, it's so uplifting when you catch yourself doing something you never thought you would. & so you see yourself doing it, feeling the weight of the matter at your very fingertips, and you're just laughing to yourself cus you think you're crazy. sometimes you follow through, or maybe you're just too embarrassed, ashamed, or frazzled and try to collect the remainders of that instant, hoping it'll never happen again.
I just ranted on my 'private blog' about how sh/tty my life's been as of late. how ready I am to collapse under my feet cus of I'm so irritated with my reflection of self; some crazy ish like that. I know that I'm lying to myself at least a little when I reason it's because I'm scared I might hurt people with whatever I'm trying to say. in everything I do in life, I try to stay committed with an honest heart. therefor, you can't please everyone right?
but of course I'm lying to myself. haha, not saying I'm going to tell all on this blog rather than my other one and vice versa. I'm just saying, don't let yourself do and not do things out of fear of something or someone else (unlike myself). don't restrict your abilities or act with haste. likewise, don't let other peoples' opinions or how you were brought up or certain levels or thinking serve as barriers for your own expansion of thought. for you'll miss everything in between, which is what really counts. take the time and take note of everything that's been placed before you and love that journey from that place to the next. it's only then that you realize who you are and who you'll become, maybe even in a figurative sense for someone else. well of course you can't help but smile cus it happened, maybe even laugh a little, right?
Love, B
I just ranted on my 'private blog' about how sh/tty my life's been as of late. how ready I am to collapse under my feet cus of I'm so irritated with my reflection of self; some crazy ish like that. I know that I'm lying to myself at least a little when I reason it's because I'm scared I might hurt people with whatever I'm trying to say. in everything I do in life, I try to stay committed with an honest heart. therefor, you can't please everyone right?
but of course I'm lying to myself. haha, not saying I'm going to tell all on this blog rather than my other one and vice versa. I'm just saying, don't let yourself do and not do things out of fear of something or someone else (unlike myself). don't restrict your abilities or act with haste. likewise, don't let other peoples' opinions or how you were brought up or certain levels or thinking serve as barriers for your own expansion of thought. for you'll miss everything in between, which is what really counts. take the time and take note of everything that's been placed before you and love that journey from that place to the next. it's only then that you realize who you are and who you'll become, maybe even in a figurative sense for someone else. well of course you can't help but smile cus it happened, maybe even laugh a little, right?
Love, B
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